The Horoscope Vault podcast predicted that this New Moon in Virgo would be difficult and that there would be “decapitation.” In other words, heads would roll. The prediction was based on texts from the I Ching and the degree theory, which assigns the 11th degree of Virgo the keyword “decapitation.” She explained that this means “removing the parts or the people of a situation that are really detrimental to the overall outcome of your situation.”
My God, some heads did apparently roll over here. My boyfriend and I broke up! We went from being “a couple” to friends with benefits, which is a relief but also very painful—in fact, quite decapitating. I’ve been running around headless for several days now.
She also predicted that I was currently dealing with unfair behavior and that someone’s ego might be impacting my experience.
And my God, I fear she was spot on. I might be dealing with another round of trauma bonding, still trying to see clearly what really happened. So maybe my own fearful ego or his ego.
Luckily, synchronicities came to help again and led me straight to another moment of clarity on the evening we broke up. I found a YouTube reel from Zanoni (one of my favorite teachers) where he mentioned examples of “devaluation” during a breakup. He gave the example where someone with narcissistic traits would say: “What are you going to do without me? No one else will love you.”
I had almost the same experience during this New Moon breakup. My now beloved ex-boyfriend (whom I don’t believe suffers from narcissistic personality disorder) was surprisingly good at handling the breakup. He bought brunch—it was intense. The toilet was clogged, just like my runny nose from all the crying. We had sex. Twice. It seems like crises just provide the right kind of juice, which is very recognizable if you’ve been in a relationship with narcissistic traits or trauma bonds before. He also bought sushi later that New Moon day—very generous! Very opposite my Pisces Moon.
I discovered him already checking out female profiles on social media while I was visiting the toilet. It did hurt a lot. We left, and then he started talking about how difficult it would be for me to find someone else who would genuinely make love to me like he did. He kept circling this topic, expressing how worried he was about my ability to find someone caring enough to have sex with me considering my special needs and disability. He really emphasized how problematic that would be and how worried he was.
To be honest, I could do two clicks on a dating app and there would be plenty of magic wands of flesh and blood to satisfy me out there if I wanted to. But I embraced his need for control and did a little “yellow rocking” and smoothed the conversation by leading the conversation back to him. Co-dependency is obviously still at work here and difficult to separate from yellow rocking.
Following breakup transits were activated:
- Mars conjunct natal Venus almost by the minute.
- Black Moon Lilith return and Juno on top of it (Juno is exact by the minute on my rising sign so this gives Juno a high interpretational value in my chart).
- Transit Venus was conjunct transit South Node (the relationship planet and the toilet bowl of the sky).
Thank you, New Moon. Thank you, Charli King. Thank you, Roman Zanoni.
Links:
The Horoscope Vault with Charly King:
https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/horoscopes-for-the-new-moon-in-virgo/id1672375911?i=1000668115020
Roman Zanoni