The effing final hit of Neptune square Neptune (midlife crisis transits) and the most astonishing synchronicity came to me. I'm blown away, and this is a very personal and spiritual story to tell. It might be considerate of me to put up a "Boring Alert" sign on this blog post because it's impossible to find the words for this experience. It always is when it comes to being one with nature, trying to describe why you believe in something higher.
The day before yesterday (20.2.2022), I watched an episode of A Discovery of Witches to empty my stressed-out, overwhelmed, breakup brain. In the 2nd season, there is a very spiritual and striking wedding scene between a fierce but leonine witch called Diana Bishop and a patriarchal vampire dude with a charming drool-worthy British accent. A white buck appears. It meant that Diana (Artemis) would be taking good care of in the future: Maybe of Artemis herself.
Artemis is the goddess of hunting, the forest, animals, fertility, and virginity. I know her from a book that my sister wrote. I actually illustrated the book cover and depicted myself in a white cloth with a bow and arrow—supposed to look like Artemis (I had no other models than myself at that time).
The feeling of that scene helped me get into a frame of mind where I was filled with joy and hope for more nature, imagination, good storytelling, and fairytales in the future. I thought of my sister with love and about shared creativity and strengths.
Today! I kid you not! A huge white buck ran on a field not far from where my mother and I were driving. It had large horns, and beautiful movements, and was the leader of a herd filled with brown deer… mind-blowing! Just waaaaoooow!
I have never seen a white buck before. I had always known about their existence, but even though I have been living in lands filled with deer all my life, I have never seen a freak’n fairytale white buck in real life before. I was flabbergasted! Wow.. just wow. It touched me deeply. It looked so unreal, and I remembered the scene from the series and the continuous focus on Artemis in even more scenes.
Luckily, my mum saw the buck too. So she would be able to confirm it with my sister, who was also watching A Discovery of Witches.
I called my sister when I came home, and weirdly enough, one of her author-friends had sent her an image of the book about Artemis she wrote that exact same day, 22.02.2022! Here I must say that this book was my first book cover ever and my sister’s first historical/fictional novel, and she has written many, many books since then! It’s ages ago, and I’m pretty embarrassed about the graphical work that I did. It was brave of my sister to use an at that time amateur for her first work with the biggest publisher in Denmark.
I was so blown away by the strong synchronicity that I thought I should paint a white buck to get in touch with the deeper meaning of this. I opened up an old archive because I thought of a photo I had of a brown buck. I remembered being at a museum with a patriarchal and dominating dude I was dating. I found it straight away and felt the relief of being freed from the dude.
But I also needed some pictures of the forest. Earlier in the morning, I actually went to the forest because a friend reminded me how important it was for my healing.
And wow! The third white buck came to me! Not in the forest, but stored in my camera. I had forgotten about some photos I took of a Christmas light show this winter. They were already on my camera, and bam! The first image I saw was this! I know this might be a reindeer, but still—it’s a bloody white buck!
At this moment, I still didn’t know what the synchronicity of this meant. I know that during that Christmas walk, my ex-partner and I were trying to connect after difficult times but weren’t able to get the deep connection we had before. Another walk down memory lane with my love life.
Back to my last hit of Neptune square Neptune at 03:02 AM. It is connected to my 9th house of higher learning and spiritual growth. I was so deeply touched, and I felt free and untangled. I wasn’t puzzled by my life as I have been for many years. I finally knew what I wanted! It was like the fog of Neptune eased, and I exploded with gratitude: a new life could begin. Right now, I’m filled with happiness, and astrology has reached me about strong connections with true love, imagination, storytelling, nature, and beautiful visualizations. I have transiting Jupiter and Neptune in Pisces, all together with my natal artistic Moon.
Today is the famous date of 22.2.2022, and many are getting married. The witch was married in the scene with the buck. She uses a magic fire bow and arrow in the series. I have a bow and arrow on the book cover where I also included my ex-boyfriend. A painful story that I’m also freed from now.
On the way back home, I heard on the radio couples talking about all the weddings today, but I could only think about my new love life with myself. ME and astrology! ME and nature! ME and other beings! Finally, I got it. I should be the centre of my universe. Not others! We are all connected. But I must be the core and cliff of my love life.
22.02.2022 was also the date when a documentary inspired by Richard Tarnas’ book Cosmos and Psyche was revealed. I have been looking forward to this so much! Living in Denmark means that it was shown at 3:00 AM in the middle of the night.
I waited with adrenaline, love, and a happy pounding heart when this fourth strong synchronicity happened to me: in the third image of the introductory text, this line appeared: “In association with ARTEMIS RISING FOUNDATION.”
I looked up my chart, and I had the asteroid Artemis rising in Leo. In astrology, that is the most important placement you can have. I also have Juno there, the asteroid of marriage. The rising is ME, Leo is ME. I’m Artemis married to myself! My mother has this too. My sister has Artemis exactly in conjunction with her Virgo Moon. Those are very significant, and compared to the rest of the family, Artemis is special for the three of us.
I feel so safe and loved all by myself. I don’t need a sexual relationship to feel the love. I feel loved by the fabric of nature, beings, planets, and myself. I’m Artemis rising. I’m the goddess of myself. It’s like the pattern of the universe soothes my anxiety after the loss of a partner, a grandfather, a dog… and yes, of course—my whole damn midlife crisis! Now I have only Uranus Opposition Uranus left, and I bet it’s going to be awesome. Astrology is the change I love and want! Uranus is the new ruler of astrology. Mercury the old. Uranus is conjuncting my natal Mercury and Chiron in the 10th house at the moment. This is so magnificent.
In Buddhism and in old Roman culture, a white buck was a sign of great fortune. I must paint. I must live. I’m free, and not only is the goddess of hunting with me, but also the white buck.
Jupiter is also sextiling Uranus at the moment. It’s an opportunity for me, mixed between my 9th and 10th houses of passion and career, and the ability to father myself.